Stupid senseless post.

L.I.F.E

I think I'm abit of an ass sometimes, and i tend to act alil like a bitch occassionally.

And I'm kinda stubborn and I really can't take criticism well.

I hate quarrels and I cry when I'm angry so I can't defend myself as much as I'd like to.

I'm really insecure most of the time , despite managing to put up a false facade most days and I often wonder how people even buy it when it's so obvious that I'm not okay - eventually i concluded that these people are just acting like they care so my answer doesn't even matter.

I suck at alot of stuff and I often wonder what've I've really achieved in the past 16years, and what I would even achieve in this year. (which really sums up to nothing)

I'm not a rebel, but neither am I a goody-goody two shoes. I'm just somewhat in between, and really unoriginal.

I reckon I give alot of problems to my parents, but none comparable to those by my brother. At least that's what i think. (which is why i get so fucked up whenever they compare me and him.)

I try my best sometimes, not to aggravate the whole world but somehow always manage to achieve the opposite effects.



And I'm really blue and way too tired to continue this so I'll just cut things short.

Life's really bumpy now and it kinda feels like I'm all alone and the whole world's against me. I'm so fucking tired of living to the world's expectations and neglecting my own. I really wish it's just me in the universe sometimes , cause then life wouldn't be so hard and everyday won't feel so much like a war with landmines everywhere, just waiting for me to set it off. But I'm just being hypothetical and truth is tomorrow when I'm awake, I'd still be feeling so fucked up and tired.
Oh well, life's like that.

PS. I still love my friends and people.