Fuck. I'm so damn deprived.



Dying to go out and get in touch with the world, but I fear that I'd be too addicted and flustered to focus on school life after I'm done with taking a break from reality.




Life sucks and it just occurrred to me yesterday - no, actually I've pondered bout this this whole week, that procrastination is making my sucky life worst and there's something wrong with me/my brain. It wouldn't spin when i want it to think and it doesn't do anth except go into sleeping or zoning off mode. How do i fucking revert it? Not that I don't enjoy this but I've got to buck up if I don't wanna flunk my mid years. Ok I sound so far-fetched and paranoid, but I suppose you get the gist. It feels like I'm impaired with the inability to study & think and it's fucking scary and annoying, coupled with the fact that I'm not smart , I need to mug to get passable results and I'm surrounded with closet muggers and naturally smart people .