I think about you every now and then, and realise what an idiot I was for doing what I did, and you too, for being somewhat an ass.
Sometimes I've the urge to text you and act like time hasn't passed, like we hadn't changed. Like nothing ever happened.
But I just can't bring myself to do what I'd probably do in the past.I suppose I've matured somehow. Part of me will always miss the more childish me. I suppose I'd less things to consider then.
But there's a time for everything. I've missed it, and so have you. Time to move on and be focused on promos.


Anyway, I can hardly believe it's promos in a little less than a month's time. It seemed like just yesterday when I stepped into VJ. Like, I can hardly believe it's even August. What the fuck have I been doing all these time? Result's been pretty screwed, I simply couldnt be bothered to put in effort. It's like, I'm still somehow zombified and really reluctant to concentrate and do well. I know the school's been blabbering about people being complacent and thinking that they don't need to study cos they did well for O's and shit. I know I'm not smart, I have to put in hardwork and alot of time to get passable grades. I'm not being complacent! I just, don't have any drive in me. I'm like, constantly tired and restless and unwilling to even read my notes much less memorise for tests and exams. But no more of that I guess, it's the real deal now. Sucks, but we've got to do what we've got to do.

I CAN DO IT! Even if it's just 25days or so, attempting to do my best beats doing nothing at all.