Why did good grades have to become such a huge emotional burden?

Results were out yesterday; I saw my name on the screen but i felt no joy no nothing , it was like a scam and everything was simply surreal. Got a pretty awesome l1r5 of 7, and i'm hoping to get into somewhere good but also somewhere i belong. It's hard. I dont belong to good schools, good schools isnt where i belong to.

Despite the pretty good grades, i'm still feeling fucked up . 书到用时方恨少. English was mad disappointing. I'm ashamed.



知足常乐，知足常乐。

明明得到自己梦寐以求的成绩，却又不知足。
夜长梦多，有些事越想越折磨。


成绩好得令我难以置信，说实话，自己根本就不可能考的那么好。是该信皇天不负苦心人，而有所耕耘就会有所收获，还是该庆幸自己每次大考都很走运？又或许，两者都是对的。


22/01 omg did anyone notice i used the wrong 知 ! i used this 自 omggggg